Let's Talk Peritoneal Dialysis!

Hey, I'm Jason. I'm a chronically-ill-super-freedom-loving-medical-self-journalist.

An unattractive, lazy disease.

Let’s face it, Cancer gets all the press. Cancer gets all the movies and all the marches and all the pink ribbons. Cancer gets all our pink ribbons, dammit. With good reason, naturally, cancer (for lack of a better term) sucks. What Cancer’s got on kidney disease is speed and movement. When someone gets sick with cancer, people act quickly. Patients on cancer treatments show the results – it looks hard, it gets reported as hard, hair falls out, marijuana gets smoked.  Marijuana gets smoked and nobody calls the fuzz.

So it’s frustrating being the underdog, at least in terms of disease notoriety. I haven’t seen a kidney transplant Walk-a-Thon shut down the streets in Los Angeles, but I’ve sat at lights watching thousands of women march against breast cancer. I’m glad they’re marching – I wish we were.

It’s not really surprising that kidney disease and dialysis don’t get much attention. People who’ve just met me don’t know I have a disease. I hide the catheter in my chest as best as possible. I bust my ass at work just as I always did, I certainly don’t want to let dialysis take my career, too. This blog, in fact, is two decades in the making – it’s taken me that long to go public with my ailments. There is safety in normal, or at the very least, the appearance of it.

When you start dialysis, the doctors all tell you how much better you’re going to feel. But they leave out the part about the end of the honeymoon. Two months into dialysis, the joys of feeling more alert give way to feeling tired all the time. Not just that run of the mill tired, but a goddam strong tired that consumes life. And, even if you’ve figured out how to limit fluid intake, there are those days when thirst is much stronger than measurement capability – and the dropping-blood pressure-payback for those extra gulps is a bitch.

All in all, though, our treatments are boring. Our symptoms are masked. People might call the fuzz if you smoke marijuana. If my blood pressure drops after treatment, I sleep it off. When my catheter gets blocked by blood clots, it’s hardly water-cooler discussion worthy. Over the years, I suspect people forget about those on dialysis. It’s easy to forget about us; we drop out of circulation for social events, we don’t make it to the family gatherings far away, we are just plain unavailable three nights of the week – permanently.

And, worst of all, we stop writing our blog posts. We try to keep up with work and with growing children and doing the dishes. We keep going to dialysis and forfeit 20+ hours of our life – something has to be left behind. For me, it’s been writing blog posts. I lost track of writing for the one thing I want the most – a kidney. Because I don’t have a kidney … irony.

Look, every disease and ailment deserves whatever attention it can get. Cancer is deadly, much deadlier than post streptococcal glomerulonephritis. It deserves the attention it gets. But those of us on dialysis deserve a lot more attention than we get. We deserve more than a passing scene in a movie, or a casual line thrown about in an emergency-room drama, “the patient is on dialysis, but he’ll be fine…”As diabetes takes over more people’s lives more people will end up on dialysis, we’re eventually going to get the attention we deserve. Like the stop sign that went up after the neighbor’s kid got hit, it’s going to involve some casualties. Publicity for a disease starts slow, only gaining momentum with the people it kills.

A blog is a good start, but I would like to see a parade. I’d like to see people giving kidneys to strangers because they were moved by a commercial, or by the gripping movie they just saw. What I’d really like, though, is the opposite  –  that which comes on the other side of the attention – I’d like to see kidney transplants become so common that they end up in a small, regular column on the 8th page of the D-section of the Sunday newspaper. And I’d like to see that before we need the front page. I’d be happy to forget all about the extreme need for kidney transplants … and go out and help my friends with cancer.

5 comments on “An unattractive, lazy disease.

  1. starpulp
    August 2, 2012

    I have a friend locally that was on dialysis for years. He just got a kidney last year. Before talking with him, I never fully understood everything that he experienced. This blog post really elaborates everything perfectly. Wish there was more I could do!

  2. Hels
    April 22, 2011

    When I found your blog title, I’ll be honest – I initially took a dislike about it. Nothing personal, but I dislike the tendancy to frame the issue on an individual basis – when someone, in any country, has facebook pages, blogs, websites, an editorial in a magazine, about their search for a kidney, it often masks the extent of the self centreness; the way that it really is all about them and once they get their kidney they will probably never talk about the issues of renal failure again; never get involved in the ongoing issues for other patients still waiting in anyway.

    But your blog is excellent, though I haven’t read much of it – extremely eloquent and considered; far more so than my own so far, which has a slightly intense, twisted tone to it.

    So I introduce myself; I’m Helen, in the UK, my partner donated a kidney to me 9 months ago, and I had been on dialysis for about a year and a half at that point. I plan on doing a documentary and a genre feature film focussing on a less shorthanded portrayal of patients – going beyond the basic objectification of the patient as the sick person and get more well rounded view, something people could genuinely have an emotional reaction to beyond hoping it never happens to them. But so far I’ve remained a bit scattered, post transplant issues getting in the way of me returning to the productive person I used to be :p

    My blog is about film and filmmaking with my partner, but I’m starting a second more focussed on the documentary I’m in pre production on and about the public perception, misinformation and media presentation of organ transplant and renal information. So far your blog is the only individually written source I’ve seen out there that’s also commenting on both personal experience and how public awareness campaigns need to change. I’d love to keep in touch…

  3. kaitlin
    February 20, 2010

    I completely agree with your blog. Although cancer does deserve to be in the public spotlight, kidney disease is just as deserving of that spotlight. Nearly 20 million Americans are affected by kidney disease – 20 million!

    Did you know that there’s a World Kidney Day? March 11th, 2010 is recognized world wide. Not many people are aware of it, yet everyone knows that October is National Breast Cancer awareness month. I don’t understand why that is.

    And Kristin Mihok, visit http://www.worldkidneynetwork.com for information on donating a kidney.

  4. RuthWells
    February 18, 2010

    I could not agree with you more.

  5. kristin mihok
    February 2, 2010

    how does one even go about donating a kidney? im willing to try.

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